Under my skin.

nostalgic

2011-10-09T12:17:00.000-07:00

I know its dumb to bring up the past but it was so unintentional. Me and my mum, having h2h and thats when it hit me.
well, usual, update my my bout my life, friends but never about love life. However, this time i actually gave it a shot and shared with her my ups and downs About M. I know its sOOO stupid to do so, but i just had to, i told her from the time we met, we texted, we went out for dates, our similariies, how cute he is, and of course to the point where it lead to nothingness which fall into the hands of Her....

come to think bout it,im still shocked that i just let it pass like that? i mean, i just didnt do much, just went home and cried my heart out due to the heartache caused by TWO people i treasure so much... as the months went by, it felt better, things eventually healed. However, only today im startin to live in all over again...

but i do i admit i was to blamed to, i just let it slipped of my fingers just like that, i dint seize the opportunity lasts.. so idk whether to blame me, her, or him.
its something i still ponder about up till this day. Its definately somthing i can nvr forget.........

2011-09-03T02:32:00.000-07:00

Taking a break now from revising SS.. gosh these few days i've been doing nothing but ss. how, how fun -.- . hahaha anw N lvl havent even started and im thinking of the thing im gonna do and need to do after Ns.. hahah so much for being well prepared.. hehe but HELLLO im so fucking stress lah. this is pissing me off, and studying is annoying, firstly its so fucking boring, secondly, i'll end up eating all the junk food which will obviously add more fats into my things, tummy and arms. argghh i hate me life noow :(

anw, i've been watching michelle phan's videos. and omg i think shes really sweet and prety. Not to mention her makeups are soooo gorgeous all the designer brushes and stuff..after watching her videos i just wna head down to sephora and buy the whole shop lah plz ( like as if i can) hahaha! but still, ive picked up many makeup tricks from her, and ive been buying some of her products.. ^^ shes too gifted lah.. hehe.

OH AND BTW, im suddenly into kpop now. idk why either. i think its cause i like prettyboys? yes boys who have girly features but still manly. heehh my fav sort of men.. esp super junior. THEY LIKE SEKSI ONLY. AHAHA i wana buy their album since heechul and tuek are going for NS soon. NOOO, suju wont be a perfect grp no more :( but nevertheless, i'll still love them like a fat kid loves cake <3<3<3. but still sad, no more lady heehee and all. ohwell, right now all they need is support and encouragement from their fans not grieve! :)

Insomnia

2011-09-02T12:17:00.001-07:00

Its currently 3.17am and im still awake. yes n lvl ss is in 2 days time, i should be sleeping now getting enough rest for tmr to start mugging again but noo im up .. doing exactly Nothing. yes nothing. what a complete waste of time. Well, i should be at Nat's house but nooo apparently im imprisoned in my own house till Ns are done. yes pity me loads. hhahaha .

Oh and recently ___ has been trying to get close to me i can sense it.. its pretty obvious. yes you're really nice and all and i appreciate you really being sweet and caring but the truth is, i dont really see this relationship leading to anywhere.. its just there stagnant.. i guess this proves that i really do not share the same feelings you feel about me. Unfortunately me being the type of person who hates breaking hearts, just refuse to lead you to the right direction but lead you to a direction where your hopes is really as high as your ego.

In the End, you'll be the one hurting yet again and here am i feeling guilty wishing i should have told earlier. But as i said before, i do not like breaking hearts, neither do i like being cold to others, if being friendly means flirting to you than i guess you're wrong. So in a way, dont Blame me for leading you in the wrong direction, cuz you were the one who chosed to believe. I just hope one day you'll see where im coming from and understand. :)

2011-08-31T21:43:00.000-07:00

spending my time studying ss and enjoying being at home today isnt such a bad idea at all. gave school a miss today as i dont really see a point in going to school on teachers day,.. anw, i woke up in a good mood today this is so strange as i always wake up and moody n all, i think its cause of that text i received. wow its been months since we've met, and yet you still think of me at times.. really feel appreciated nowadays.. so with my good mood today i shall use it to study hard!! for my n on monday (fuck) hehee

nat's 16

2011-08-31T08:39:00.000-07:00

So recently it was Nat's birthday. Shes so sweet to book a really pretty hotel for all of us to party in. well after travelling by myself to sentosa, i got lost trying to find my way to the damn hotel. but luckily, i found yasmyn, my, etc which was otw, so i guessed they were my life savers if not i might be wandering like a retard. Okay practicaly we had dinner, made one hell of a racket ( prolly disturbed the whole level), partied HARD till some of us died. AHAHAHA. well it was an all girls party, so i guess it safe.. i think?!! but i have to admit, all girls parties seems more fun? hahaha.

leading to nowhere

2011-08-31T08:32:00.000-07:00

Okay maybe i should start blogging again. however, i dont really see a point in doing so cuz no one would actually read my blog. but sometimes i just need to spill out everyting. and i guess i dont really have a particular person i can share my problems with? therefore, i turn to my blog. i know how pathetic. like as if a blog could calm me down and advice me about life.

2010-10-15T10:30:00.000-07:00

OMFG donghae and ryewook is so mfking gorgeous! Super good looking men. They are alll mine!!!!! I'm soo in love with my fish and wookie. Hahahah! Im done with Singaporean men like seriously, they are sooo boring. I mean Koreans are plastic(some) but they are hot.. So why not right??? Heh ;))

2010-10-12T06:23:00.000-07:00

OMG im gonna explodeee. stupid eoy exams. screw you!! :( anw, i hope ive done better that last year.. cuz like if i dont it will be retard. TSSK. sighs. im mugging like some mother dog now. ANW, omg im in with suju :) i know right, how surprising of me. but yeah... im sick of whites or latinos alr. now its KOREANSSSS. HAHAHA they are hot asians okay. superr pretty boys.. hahaha gosh if i were to put suju in a room and randomly pick of em while blindfolded, i'd still be happy. becuz like ayiaaa, anyoen will do. they so hot. i wana make out with a hot korean. NOW. okaayy back to mugging ^^. kbye.

2010-10-05T22:10:00.000-07:00

"Forgive me but I need to be loved too,Forgive me but I can't wait around for you,Forgive me if I found a man ,Who understands just what I need."

2010-10-05T03:01:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but I think it's super Annoying when he tries to get close to me.. I mean you're really sweet and nice but sad to say you're just being super irritating by liking me. I mean I don't wana hurt your feelings but you're seriously not my type at all. And the worst thing is people think I like you too. But sorry.... I don't. This may sound a little harsh but I just want you to know the truth. I don't Wana be one of those sluts that pretend to be in love when In acutal fact their not. So I really hope you'll understand . :) oh i kinda like somebody else already, but i just dont knowww how to tell you and not hurt yr feelings.. oh well......... i cant do much anw.. bye@

2010-10-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

MY whole week was super productive. yes, i studied ALOT.. for like the first time in history. But i dont care lah. im wana be a nerd, im sooo gonna sec4 man.. wooohooo! ANW, this totoally sucks, i miss my ex real bad. i know its soooo 2 years ago. but i dont care, i miss himm so badly. hes still the same sweet boy i used to know.. GAHH, now im stuck between Him and .... TSK. this sucks. OH and he didnt reply my last text, so SADDD. LOL. anw, aiaayy i hope things would work out ... OH and henri is so weird. HE is such a stupid mofo. he has serius issues. GO GET YRSELF A BARBIE DOLL LAH BLOODY DOG.

2010-09-10T07:37:00.000-07:00

Omg today is the best day ever!!!!!;)

2010-08-31T19:12:00.000-07:00

so whut if im a bitch/slut?!... i dont really give a damn! :) hahahahahah.

2010-08-08T01:16:00.000-07:00

St pats carnival was hardcore hot and sweaty!!!! But im so happy I get to see him after so long (: I miss him soo much!!!

2010-08-01T04:36:00.000-07:00

Damn sunday is here again! :( why must time pass so fast??? it feels like ytd was only friday night.. sighs.. anw at least i spent my weekend quite fruitfully. :)
hmm im sooo bored.. here are ten things ive done this week..

1. i finally packed my room.. haha its was soo damn messy but now i feel so good (Y)

2. made a replica of my all time favorite java chip..

3. SLEEP.

4. met up wit some relatives and friends.

5. shopping!! i bought a dress, a babydoll top, And SHOESSS!!!!

6. attempted to start on my tuition homework.. -.-

7. made a playlistt of all my favourite latino songs ^.^!

8. made heart shaped cookies.. its soo pretty you cant bear to take a bite.. :D

9. movie marathon wit my mommy <333333

10. went to church. <3

2010-07-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

hi world, my saturday is such a slow mundane one. but anw, at least Ive got the chance to catch up some sleep. oh and i was watching this show about icy hotspots.. its about really pretty icy holiday destinations.. its sooo gorgeous! my favourite one is St Moritz Switzerland. its like a winterwonderland there!! :( not to mention huskys and pretty hot tubs.. Sooo woooowww. i wana go there, my fututre boyfr better bring me to there or else we're though !! HAAH okay joking, but i really wana go thereee. :(

2010-07-21T07:23:00.000-07:00

sighs, even though im sooo mad at you, i still cant bare to hate you. :( i just cant. damn, why must you be so lovable? urhh, ill nvr understand whats really going on in a man's brain, its just weird. BUT this sucks, idk if i can trust guys as much as i did last time, i mean all the experiences made me realized that only yr family and friends are the ones that really care for you. FOr the other men out there, they're out to crush you. i sooo goin on a hiatus now. perhaps, girls for now. LOL. (;

2010-07-20T03:39:00.000-07:00

Thats it, I've learnt my lesson. guys are assholes. MOST of them are same. i know i shouldnt be stereotyping.. but i don't really give a fuck . :) all they do is talk to you and make u feel like yr higher than the moon , next thing yknow, they just wana break that small lil pathetic heart of yours. and the worst thig is, i didnt do anything to hurt you. why is it hard just to tell me the damn truth. dont you have any balls at all?!?!? And you left me hanging like some Fucktard waiting for you to reply.. wow, what a gentlemen alright, you sure know how to treat a lady right dont you? oh and AWWWW, yr girlfriend is sooo lucky to have a gentlemen like you! :)

2010-07-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

So whut if its him? he might be a lil old for me but do i look like a give a fcuk? :)

FML.

2010-07-05T00:03:00.000-07:00

i cant take it anymore.. :( today i was out wit my mum. we had some lil argument which became a damn huge one. i cant believed she yelled at me in public, :( like hardcore. people was staringg and all. omg its like i wana cry but i dont cry in public its soo paiseh luh... but wth lah. FML.

2010-07-04T21:46:00.000-07:00

its been 2 fucking days and i fucking miss you already. tskk.

2010-07-04T02:41:00.001-07:00

this week has been a torturous yet intertesting week. haha i guess its the usual first week of school thing. tired, lethargic, lazy, unfinished holiday assignment. :( ohwell... at least im glad ive been talking to this mister who has kept me entertained for like the past few days.. he's real sweet and funny. :)

FUCK SCHOOL.

2010-06-27T00:48:00.000-07:00

4 DAYS OF HARDCORE PARTYING!!!. I WANNA DRINKKK UNTILL I GET HIGHHHH AND PUKEEE AND DIE. :) YAY.

2010-06-18T03:07:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel likei dont even know you. idk whether is it me or that you're just a bad conversationalist.

awesomesause(:

2010-06-14T09:06:00.000-07:00

Bt's bbq was such an epic win. friendly people, random talks, fresh ciggs, GODZILLA, apple crumble. (;

2010-06-07T02:18:00.000-07:00

perhaps its another lame crap infatuation.... cuz i dont feel it anymore. :(

2010-06-02T00:44:00.001-07:00

Dyou rmb all the late night texts and the daily morning greetings? What happened to all those sweet lil things you said to me? i know... i should be really supportive of you two and the last thing that both of you deserves from me is jeolousy. and yes of course im happy for you!! you are so dear to me.. but sometimes, when i recall, i wonder what what was he thinking when he said all those to me, i really wonder. & this isint the first time... ive been getting crap from ..... and its like history is repeating itself.. all i can say is... GUYS ARE SUCH GREAT ACTORS... i really 'salute' you for that.. really..

2010-06-02T00:28:00.000-07:00

today has been really mundane. i overslept therefore missed chem remedial. haha but at least i spent all morning studying, ohh and cough and sore throat is back haunt me. i really hate it. ohwells..should have listened to mummy bout the no chocolate, spicy food, chips and stuff thingy. im sooo stubborn .. as usual -.-

2010-05-30T07:51:00.000-07:00

SMART+ GEEKY+SEXY HAIR+TRACKER+BABY FACE.... awww man, you're so irresistible..yummmm, (;

2010-05-19T06:50:00.000-07:00

ven's 16! wooohooo.

2010-05-12T23:48:00.000-07:00

I.NEED.SHOPPING.NOWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

2010-05-12T10:25:00.000-07:00

bowling wit amalina,annisa,joan,syazwani, gwen and ardini today. hahah full of stupid nonsence happend today. the bus ride was soo long but gwen entertained us.. ALOT.. hahah shes such a big bully. :'( anw, Ardini such a sweetie for bringing a birthday cake for the two birthday girls, hahaha very happy day today.

ohh and i met skye, maryam,and ted. skye and maryam are such sweeties! they surprised me and ted wit little mini cakes with candles.. how cute right, and they sang us a birthday song ! met tracy awhile wit her friends.. hahah they are sooo nice, i like hardly even know them and they sang me and ted and birthday song, real sweet.
hmmm, ehub was fun, billiard was sucha fayl. :\ hahah oh well, we had fun. reached ome around 12ish. sooooo dead tired!

Happy birthday to me! ^^

2010-05-12T02:56:00.000-07:00

yay, im finally 16! todayyyy! im so happy now! its like this day is so wonderful knowing you've just turned 16!! i love it!! i love this day soososo much!
oh and i recieved tons of wishes and gifts by lotsa people,! thankkss alot! :D
i really appreaciate every single wish i received! really means alot to me!
LUVVV YOU ALLLL .. mwauaaaah! ^^

2010-05-11T03:38:00.000-07:00

Hmmmmm this week im soooo busyyyy.. :(

wed-caught in a dilemma on whether to go out wit amalina OR skatepark wit ted and dyl.
thurs- accompany ven to dentish, than town.
fri- marc's bbq
sat- prolly celebratin my birthday wit family
sunday-holy fam comfirmation, or iceskating/rollerblading wit ven and gabe.

URRGGHh.. busssy. no time. tssk. -_-''

2010-05-10T22:25:00.000-07:00

Hi world (: im feeling bored on the eve of my birtday... -.- i know how pathetic.. hahah. Okay, tmr and the weeks ahead are gonna be awesome! parties and more parties! OHHHH did someone say SHOPPING:D :D

2010-05-10T07:22:00.001-07:00

5 down, one more to go. yup, say byebye to midyears. but nah, not too soon,still gotta go through f&n, i knnooww, exams are sooo draggy. cant stand it. okay, today was math! and it was a killer, practically screwed up my graph, i know, graphs should be the easiest to score, but i screw it up :( so stfu alr............
Hmmmmm 2 more days till sweet sixteen.. not biggie, but its great feelin a year older and WISER i hope, heh.

hmmm, june hols are round th corner, and im like already havin sooo many plans and outtings! which is not good, cuz i wanted to spent my june holidays to be purely revision. but a day or two of relaxtion wont harm right? (;

2010-05-08T03:14:00.000-07:00

i know its stupid to wait for someone thats pretending to be oblivious.
but for you i will (:

Rite of sending forth ((:

2010-05-01T09:27:00.000-07:00

gonna miss these fellas! :D

Today was ROSF. yup, no more worries about dragging myself for class every Sunday or tryna think of some lame excuse for why am i late or didn't make it. hahahaha! yay!
but im soo gonna miss the people. although i don't talk much to the girls.. but who cares! i miss my class ohh and the teachers too..!! sighs, time pass so fast.

2010-04-29T06:54:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO PASS MY ENG, E MATH, HUMANS,SCIENCES & FNN. IM SO STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. :(

2010-04-27T06:27:00.000-07:00

idk but nowadays you've been on my mind since the day we start speaking. you're nice cute, handsome, fun to be wit . i wana see you more often...!! :( you're all that i ever think of :(

M

2010-04-26T04:42:00.000-07:00

Im deeply in love wit you. ♥

2010-04-26T04:31:00.000-07:00

heyyy.. omg i just realized i gotta stop blogging. todays the start of the exam period! gotta study study :D anw, before clb exam i met marc did some ***** than went to play cs. :D hahahah ohh and ryan and and his friend was there too..tsk, stewwpid place.. why you gotta be soo cold? :( hhaha BTW, clb exam was like hell.at first i coudlnt found the classroom.. so i got the mister mole to help me out.. hesso annoying! tsskk. okay exam was pretty slacked. but it was wayyy boring.. the good thing is i get to see pretty boy (A) hahahahahha but M is better (Y)(Y) im tired.. needa study now. BAI! :D

2010-04-25T01:50:00.000-07:00

aweseome day i had. spent the afternoon at the pines club wit my mum, aunty agnes, aunty diane and the rest.. had dim sum and latte. hmm my fav! , and chitchat ^^. i also met this cute lil japanese baby aunty agnes was babysittin, her name is jayna. she is such a precious gem! i love her ^^. after that, my dad fetched me and mum to orchard and we shopped awhile (:...aweseome i bought this new pair of earrings.. really shiny and i wore it right away cuz i totally matched my heels!! ^.^ love it!! hahah okay and than while shopping, bummped into aunty malinah and her friend..so we went to this japanese resataurant and did some catching up (: its sooo beautiful her frriend went to venice! such a wonderful place for a dance compeotition.. i saw everything like the pics and vid.. aww i love venice!! i wana get married there someday (; okay we left around 6 ish and fetched my bro and his from the home team academy....reached home like 9 plus?? superrr shagged. but was a fun day (:

special friend,

2010-04-21T04:22:00.000-07:00

few days ago, you, yes you, whom i never thought would ever breathe a word to me, actually took the first step to talk to me. pretty impressive (; .. well. its kinda akward, because i've known you since we were in diapers but we were never close.. but now its all different, i guess its maturity huurh (; pretty shocked but happiness just overwhelmed everything .. (:

oh and if you ever read this, just wna say, yr a real charmer, cutie (;

2010-04-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

im gonna miss ms seow! noooo, why dyou have to go? you made bio funnn :( gonna miss yr retarded mrt stories.. oh and rotating flower!! hahah love and missss u ttm.

2010-04-17T20:45:00.000-07:00

Thats is. its comfirmed i still like you. just yesterday, i saw this handsome charming man who look just exactly like someone, yknow wit the cute face, druggy eyes, same hair too :p got the hint?? (: ... hahah couldnt stop staring at at him because by looking at him, i can imagine that very guy was you. although he was kinda taller... haha but i dont care i still miss you :(

2010-04-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

im sick of being single. i swear... far too long. sighs. how i envy loving couple and old people holding hands. :(

happy birday isk ^^

2010-04-02T08:46:00.000-07:00

Awesome day wit amirah, nur, isk,dan,haziq (: today was really fun i had soo much fun!
lunch at pizzahut was goood despite we walked here and there trying to find a decent place to eat. but its alright :D after that we played TorD and the open area, did many crazy shit so yeaah! its been such a long time since i laughed my assed off ^^ hhahahaha.
camwhored until 7 ish. than isk and haziq left.
walked around toysRus wit dan an the girls>window shopped with nur> heart2heart talk <33
i reached home like 11.45? so damn sleepy now... gotta crash now :D:D

2010-03-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

had such a enjoyable time wit htet tun and his friends today (: they are such nice people ^^
slacked around doby>national library>fort cannning (: i love it there! so empty, so much fresh air... far away from the city life ^^ (Y)(Y)

2010-03-29T06:40:00.000-07:00

shopping wit amirah today :P its been so long since we shopped after school hahah. ohwell, rain why did you have to ruin our hair in orchard today?? :( its soo unglam ttm k :(
but its okay bought lotsa pretty stuff t today ^^ super ecstatic :D

okay gtg now, gonna meet skye and hakim nowwww.
^^V

darling i wish you were here,

2010-03-29T04:37:00.001-07:00

towned today wit christina, jasmine and skye (:
awesome day. didnt shopped much though :(

2010-03-15T01:42:00.000-07:00

town and e awards today. :)))))))))))))
kinda boring, we only went cuz jolyn had free tickets..
but yknow, im just startin to like shinee.. not cuz of their songs or whatever but bcuz their hot!!
im soo over ang mohs now.. korean boys is the new thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rawrrrr -.-
Ohhh and Olivia ong was awesome. really pretty and nice voice..
tskk im jealous now.

2010-03-15T01:39:00.000-07:00

paramore! <3<3<3

2010-03-05T18:29:00.000-08:00

Jasmine's house today (;
eat>com-ed>camwhore>macs>heart2heart talks> bitched about some people after looking at their fugly, ,ACT HOT/SEXY/CUTE pictures -.-

hehehe ^^V

2010-03-04T06:26:00.000-08:00

im kinda sad. i flunked ss. SS! and to think i studied for it. siighsssss.
to make matters worst, my 2.4 tryout really sucked. 17 mins.... awful isn't it?
but its okay, gotta train startin from today(: MUST.GET.14 :D

OH and i hope N doesnt think im a biatch for talking to ******
but sometimes with those cute lil eyes, you just cant help rightt? (;

2010-02-28T04:22:00.000-08:00

you know how life can be, it changes overnight
it's sunny then raining, but it's alright
a friend like you always makes it easy.
You're on my mind, you're in my heart
it doesn't matter where you are
we'll be alright, even if we're miles apart

2010-02-27T08:59:00.000-08:00

heyyyy today i met kevin and his friends for sheesha (;
before that we lepaked at starbucks for coffeee and yknow... haha!
did alot todayyy. SOOO NOT COOL BEL. > :(
After that headed to haji for sheesha. quite cool atmosphere though (; all the young people and all.
However, i hate it whenver people stare at you. like fuck.. what did i do man.. :(
hmmm slacked at the carpet place till 11. 45 than the guys accompanied me home (:
so sweet right. :> i felt so bad cuz they paid for my cab fare+drinks+sheesha... :(
okay, gtg now bb.

2010-02-26T19:44:00.000-08:00

Omg cas are over like finally. but yknow... my marks are gonna be damn screwed.. again -.-
anw, today me and jasmine went to townnnn :D. damn, i felt like i burned a huge hole in my pocket.. i really spent alot today. really heart breaking... :( but nvm lah, its fun to shop! wooohooo.
ohh and i really wanted to get this audrey hepburn ring. its soo pretty but its 49bucks for a small thing. almost bought it when i realized i left 5 bucks after spending sooo much. Fml. T.T.. nvm, should ask daddy (: i hope he'll be nice and buy it for me ((((((:
anw, im soooo tired now. need to crash :D

2010-02-25T05:52:00.000-08:00

Life's getting boring each day, :( sighhhhs.
anw, ca is week is finally overr... super happy * big smile*
OHh i was watching paris hilton's my new bff and omgosh im sooo sad erika is out. :(
shes really pretty and all, but tsktsk too bad missy, it aint nice to mess around with someone elses fiance yknow :p hehe.
anw, cca today was pure dumb..we had to pick up platic bottles from the dustbin. but nah, i didnt do the dirty job, thank god (;
was kinda gross when certain people actually stick their heads into garbage.. like wow i totally salute you for doing that.. hahah:D
okay gtg now, gonna shop tmr.. yayyyyers :D

amirah's sweet sixteen

2010-02-12T20:48:00.000-08:00

haaha so bimbo :D

Celebrated mira's birthday. (: dinner at ion swensens was good! i love the cupcakes especially (;
after dinner, headed to esplanade with amirah,amira,clair,fatin,syifaa, lina, isaac etc. went to the rooftop and played twister and bought some booze. got high a little but wasnt drunk (;.. see we are strong people.. unlike some people.......
slack around till midnight than cab home wit amira
gossh, i need to rest now. bye.

2010-02-10T07:38:00.000-08:00

towned wit jasmine and joan today.
see that top im holding? i soo totally want that. jasmine has it . T.T
gonna get it soon.
Ohh and CNY is just round the corner... i smell $$$$ :D yay!

2010-02-09T04:48:00.000-08:00

Today after school me heeda and lina headed to kk hospital to visit assyura. :(really sad to see her like that almost t cried D: but at least im happy she can go home tmrw.. ^^ we left when she fell asleep. get well soon k ((((:
After that, walked around little india. it was pretty creepy due to certain humans which kept bugging us. I cant stand it. its sooo annoying when they stare at you as if you came from some weird planet.. especially that particular dude that was walking behind us... urhhh irks me to the max. :( but at least we did some shopping!! i love indian bangles! they're so pretty and shiny right! :D haha oh and also bought this super bling pen.. its super bimbo! but nah, i dont really give a damn. hehe ^^
Oh and btw, im kinda pissed with LJS bugis today. just because you ran out of fries that doesnt mean you could replace them wit chips right? like abit cheater bug sia. :(( stupid woman....
hahaha i shall stop complaining :D .. hahaha super sleepy now. gonna crash now. ((:

2010-01-30T08:26:00.000-08:00

once upon a time
we swore not to say goodbye
something got a hold of us
and we changed
and you sat alone in pride
and i sat at home and cried

happy 17th bday shawn (:

2010-01-30T00:32:00.000-08:00

Today was fun! had and awesome time at Shawn koh's house. (: finally got the chance to meet up wit the rest after so long^^ oh and thanks to cesco finally managed to.... hahah after one month of hiatus. Anw, we watched many grossed out vids today. real sad/gross :( like one vid shows how china people toture dogs, like they are soo friggin cruel i swear!! ohh and this another vid of this guy whos whole jaw dropped off due to slashing wit a rusty knife.. something like that!! it was fucking disgusting..hmmm, food was wayyy bagus. spicy food+choco cake ^.^ i likeeeee!
left around 10? reached home like 2 hours later... grrrr @ sengkang(:

2010-01-27T03:32:00.000-08:00

Hello! im currently lazing around drinking tea and eating biscuits.. hahah! anw the song "september" by earth,wind and fire is stuck on my head again..its so cute!! (:
anw, while walking home from school, i encountered a friggin monkey! omg i felt like screaming man.. like some wild monkey beneath some tree.. its looks so wild+ it gimme the sting eye! omgosh !! i guess it escaped from the zoo :P..
hmm, im pretty happy wit myself cuz i did lotsa excercise today! yay!!
especially jumping jacks (; i somehow love and hate whenever mr english teacher asks us to do that. heh.

2010-01-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

hey, today we visited kcp. it was pretty cool as i have like a gazillion memories there.. all the innocent and carefree days(; lunch was so-so. The Noodles totally dropped its standard man..i wonder what happened to the chilli man, it used to taste so good. *big sigh*
anw, met jasmine and kimberly for brownie and ice cream at cafe galilee than headed to parkway to window shop than we went to giant and bought tons of nerds! HAHAHA 99cents okay + buy1 get one free. how cool right. ((((:
After which i went to M&S and got percy pig. left around 7.45
goshhhhh, im soooo tired now :(

2010-01-21T05:16:00.000-08:00

Today was kinda hell-ish for me..after school, we got caught playing cards and some kaninabitch went to confiscate and she wants our names by tmrw..sighss..OHHHH and Ms geog teacher is sooo picking on me.. its like so damn obvious pls? okay, i admit it was my fault i didnt bring my textbook today, but still, you dont have t show your bitchy attitude towards me right low life bitch! first you kept calling my name, than you say im selfish? Wtffff..I wish you could just fuck off and stop judging people... since when thats even in my vocabulary?! what does selfishness has anything got to do with asking someone some random quetion?? HUUURRRH! :(
anw, english was kinda retarded but fun^^. HAHAH we had to do jumping jacks. damn unglam ok!! but at least we did a mini work out (: hahaha!
CCA was the best so far. finally hanged wit heeda and all. laugh like mad..and im gonna repierce my belly soon ^^ yayyyy (:

2010-01-20T02:44:00.000-08:00

i hate how much i love seeing her in THOSE OHMYGOSSH HEELS :(

Gorgeous bitch!!

I.NEED.TO.SHOP hahaha for some reason im like into knitted crop tops.. They are motherefffing cutee (:

<3333333333333

<33333333

why cant it be a pony? D: but it'll do ^^

2010-01-20T02:20:00.000-08:00

"There are friends that i don't talk to but actually care a lot about"

I LOVE this phrase sooo much thats exactly how i feel each day... (: anw got it from facebook... im like joining 10001 groups right now. HAHAHA.

my bitchy school day (:

2010-01-19T23:37:00.000-08:00

My day in school today was like kinda crappy today. firstly, first period was 3 whole periods of english ..i know, how dreadful.. it was okay until Errherrm gave us hell with the standing up and stuff.. well, at least we learnt the diff between could and should. (((:
P.E was terrible.. couldnt run, legs were sore.. damn, my stamina soo totally went down :( needa work on that soon ^^
Ohhh and geog today was the real killer this time, somehow i just couldnt stay awake.. but at least i took the time to write some notes even though i could barely sit up straight.. haha.
after school, i met yknnowww (; (; bought wanton noodles now we are 'studying' hahaha (:

2010-01-19T04:42:00.000-08:00

i know that i got issues
but you're pretty messed up too
Either way, i found out im nothing without you

2010-01-16T08:57:00.000-08:00

his soo damn cute, i wana date him nowwwzzz :(

Hey, i met Jasmine today (: ..today was fine but it was like one of those days where you walked like hell and your legs just wants to break. :( first we went to Clarke quay.. IM SOOO VERY HAPPY cuz I bought my bodycon dress, some floral dress, another floral top, black cardi and bangles. jasmine bought heels. vvv sexaye (;. OHHHH and today we did something really dumb! we thought there was some event held at mt sophia so we climbed up the fucking high flight of stairs leading to mt sophia. in the end, there was nothing. -.- I CANT BELIEVED I SWEAT FOR NOTHING.
anw, we headed to town to search for heels. all so pretty! i cant choose for nutz man... :(
& while walking along orchard rd we came across this lil fella dressed as MJ, really lookalike mann..cant help but to take a picture wit him. superrrr cute ^^
After town i met my family and my aunt at suntec for dinner at swensens.. :P
DAMN bloated.. oh nooo, say hello to FATS. *SUPER SAD FACE*
left around around 10 plus i guess......

2010-01-15T19:45:00.000-08:00

life is so unfair.........

2010-01-15T04:01:00.001-08:00

Hi world. omg im sooo happy! why? cuz its finally the weekends!yayyy (:
i just came back from bryans's house (; we played soccer with just a tennis ball.. i know how lame -.- and surprisingly,hes little friends are really good, i feel so crap, whenever i kept losing to them :(.. supposedly wanted to watch movie with my classmates but my mum didnt let, :( only like after i finished chores i realized i needed to meet bryan-.-''
ANW,past few days of school was so slack and fun.. especially body world! its so cool to see real human body parts.. very educational indeed ^^.
During school today we had some Tuvalu thingy. had to make up a lil perfomance with dancers, singing and music. sadly, it was kinda fayl. actually hardcore fayllllll :\
Oh and to this particular chic.. yeah you! it kinda irks me to see you looking, staring at me like that. not that im guai lan or anything. but if you wana talk to me, just do it rather than beating around the bush.
because of you, you make me feel so damn akward when im around you... but i do hope things will change (:

2010-01-13T07:55:00.000-08:00

Damn, i feel so fucked after the previous post. but relax people, im not always like that(: . but this time, i had no choice..the feeling right now has really taken its toll on me. i cant handle it! i really wish i could just tell the truth in your face .. but sorry im being selfish to give you the wrong impressions. But face it, YOU ARE NOT UP TO MY EXPECTATIONS. OMG thanks alot, instead of making me happy, you ruined my freaking life! how ironic isint it...

2010-01-13T07:36:00.001-08:00

TODAY I JUST MADE THE MOST FUCKING STUPID DECISION EVER. SHIT NOW IM REGRETTING EVERY MOMENT OF IT. SO WHAT IF IM A SLUT?! SO WHAT IF IM A MOTHER FUCKING SLUT?!?!?!?!? I HOPE YR SATISFIED YOU SON OF A BITCH. IM SORRY BUT I THINK YOU SHOULD HAVE KNWN THE UGLY TRUTH ALL ALONG.

2010-01-10T05:37:00.000-08:00

hey! towned wit venz today..it was pretty fun as compared to the holidays, orchard seems less crowded nowadays.. so i guess thats a plus? or maybe not.. i kinda miss those times where you walk along orchard road and some hot mister suddenly smiles at you.. sighs.. now its like world of maids and weirdos! :(
anw, bought some telephone wires HAHA and my OPI.. its so pretty! some milky white colur <3<3
had some dinner at taka food court.. venz had fishball noodle wit chilli (as usual -.-) and i had the tako pachi? hahaha idk but its the japanese ball thing. ok whatever.
walked around orchard rd with blizzard ice cream.. omg! Now im gonna be FAT. :(
OH and the trip home was damn stupid. i think its like the second time we dropped off at marina bay instead of cityhall -.- damn bloody joke. HAHA. okay anw reached home around 8 plus..

okay gonna finish up some last minute homework (; .

2010-01-08T09:54:00.000-08:00

Today was such a roller coaster ride. firstly, i came to school half awake and not to mention going through lessons with an absent minded mind. i was like practically stoning during maths-.-
anw, after school a few of us bussed down to tm.. from there, we had lunch and bought our tickets to " vampire assistant" omg, its really nice! i <3 it. OHH and we got kicked out from 2 places today. first the kids place thingy some women went to chase us out and second, at toyRus..-.- some bloody bitch kicked us out cuz certain people were running around.HAHA..
after the movie we slacked at some friend's block> popeyes wit my mum> now home. :D
goshhhh, im so bloody sleepy i could just drop dead now!!

okay i gtg now, bye (:

2010-01-05T06:42:00.000-08:00

Today was the second day of school.. hmm well, not that bad i suppose (:
at least my new class is more welcoming than expected. HAHAH
walked to tanah merah>bus 14 wit venz> holy fam.
After mass, we like walked back. like omg, ewwwwy much! i was like sweaty and stuff.. arhhh ( haha bimbo moment-.-)
Ohhhh, and today had a talk about the camp we are gonna go next week. DAMN, i have to go through this nonsence again! and this time, its gonna be at johor. i bet its some horrible place wit disgusting food, no heated water, and like infested wit bugs?! OHMYGOD :( nvm bel, must learn to be strong and manly! HAHAHAHHAHA.

okay, i need to crash now, freakin sleepy depsite the fact i slept the whole afternoon...-.-''
(:

screw school.

2010-01-05T03:02:00.000-08:00

hahaha im bored, decided to upload some pictures which i was suppose to put up eonnnns ago :P
anw, sitting here reminiscing about my awesome holiday isint gonna make my pathetic day any better -.-
why must school be such a bitch!! ohwells, i'll get over the whole new class thing (;

2009-12-07T22:01:00.000-08:00

Shopping today wit venz and gabe today (; its pretty demoralizing to see a guy spending wayyy more money than us. tsktsk. should have brought more money .... anw walked around and saw this brown shoe laced heels, this pretty dress from cache cache and all the stuff in sephora.. they're so pretty! gonna do some major saving. that means cutting down on yknw yknow (;
clair met us around 6 plus , walked around, slacked at starbucks than caught a late night movie.. NEW MOON IS SO GOOD! ~ i lovelove it sooo much especially taylor lautner's hot bod. ahhhhhh~~ robert's better stil though (;
oh and i ran like hell to catch the last train home -.-

2009-11-26T09:16:00.000-08:00

urghh.. major flat hair -.-''

i had a really good time wit jasmine and adrian today. WWW after like 3-4 years. (:
matt was suppose to come, but he had some issues so yeah.
anw, one of my favourite was ooh lala. went a few times which gimme a huge headache! felt like pukinggg. uggh.
After that, we headed to Ehub for sushi and lepakkkkkk.
OH and we caught the movie A christmas carol. its sooo nice!
i LOVELOVE xmas shows.. superrr cute! :D
Than, had gelare... omhygod i feel so gluttony now. STupid me, bought some ice cream which i didnt finish.
damn.... anw, headed home and crashed straightaway.
really exhausting day!

2009-11-25T02:22:00.000-08:00

this few days is sooo gonna suck for me... idk but i just feel so emty with you not being around. ok, maybe we only met a few times but really, i do miss your smile! its just so beautiful and every problems i have just start to fade whenever im wit you. its like, every second counts whenever you're around. & and its really hard on me not knowing when we'll meet again. im gonna look forward to that. (: to me, your just prefect. i love yr everything... i really do.. (: yr imperfections make me wna love you more. but i just dont have to guts to say all these in yr face.

its okay.... love needs patience right bel? (:

2009-11-20T10:21:00.000-08:00

me,matthew,joel, and the falling chin :D

had such an awesome night. although all we did was lepak and walking thru the trees of the swamp.. it was pretty fun! :D
hmmm, sunrise was such a failure. (;

2009-11-14T10:08:00.000-08:00

every minutes like an hour, every hours like a day,
i'll just slowly count the number of days i have to wait.......

2009-11-12T10:51:00.000-08:00

OMG G IS SUCH A MOTHERFUCKING BITCH! can you just fuck off? i srsly feel like like smashing yr head in the wall. NOW.

2009-11-12T08:07:00.000-08:00

I might have to wait
I'll never give up
i guess It's Half timing and the other Half's luck
wherever you are
whenever It's right
you come out of Nowhere and into my life

2009-10-23T04:34:00.000-07:00

ohmygod..im just so scared and lost. why?? im so scared that ill retain in sec3... i so dont want that to happen!
i mean like, they say you get what you deserved but really, ive tried my best! my heart and soul into it..its not my fault im stupid BUT all that matters that ive done my bestest..
ok, so i told my parents that i may retain. they told me they wont get mad.. BUT THATS NOT THE POINT! i just dont wana be in a class which is soooo unknown to me and not to mention gross people! :( I JUST CANT REST MY MIND!
im like praying to god to let me be promoted.. cuz this is like the first time ever im feelin this scared..
okay bel, be positive! you'll get promoted or advanced.......

2009-10-21T03:39:00.000-07:00

i dont know, but i think i may be fallin for you
droppin so quickly,maybe i should keep this to myself
wait until i know you better.
i am trying not to tell you,but i want to
i'm scared of what you'll say
so im hidin what im feelin,
but im tired of holding in inside my head.

2009-10-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

oh gosh, im like so dead tired after tonning at quek's chalet! but its okay, cuz i has soo much fun! (: well, sorry to myself i didnt had my beauty sleep that i was yearning for before the exams ended..hahah anw, at first i was really lost cuz i like dont know anyone thereeee. but lucky there were familiar faces like hazel, fadzlynn,cheryl, nad, trish, etc. like thank god they came if not i would have been one pathetic girl just sitting there staring into space..hahah.

ohhhh and i think the chalet was a lil dull urhh? i mean like it was suppose to past time really quickly, but no, people were all just lepaking and sometimes i would hear something like " woah, its 9 only i thought i thought it was 1am sia" hahah that kinda thing. but ohwells, at least truth or dare was awesome and we made the best out of it by playing cards... hahahaha its fun! :P

okay, this is when boredom had taken its toll on us, hahaha lepak outside macs with a bunch of nice people.. hahaha all the random jokes and stories starts coming out! i swear it was wayyyyy entertaining..! (Y)(Y)
it was like 3-4ish until SOME people wanted to find "pontianak" hahahahahahahahhha. walked towards the swamp place..i was like omgomgomgomgomg cuz i didnt know it was that dark? went all the way in and out.. but i fucking saw nothing :( but idk why everyone else said they saw something.... hmmm weird urh?

rest at kyles house>bought stuff>lepak by the canal>retarded moments of some random guy>home. :D
kyle, matt and paits sent me to the mrt.. how sweet right? hahahha okay i need to Slllleeeeeeppppp nowzxszx.
chaoz xx

2009-10-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

Oh why must there be exams?! im so fucking stressed up cuz of it.
so yeah, exam week is finally here. ); I cant believed i actually studied at the library for the pass few weeks. Its sooooo not me alright! but hey, i feel smarter already (;
anw, im feelin kinda happy today cuz i managed to catch up on my beauty sleep due to chinese exam. Met Sonia at 11+ at siglap starbucks studied till like 5 plus? so powerrr right! i actually studied like 5 chapters of bio properly.. okay maybe not. BUT HEY, its not my fault that there was this certain mister that really made me lost concentration. HE.IS.SO.DAMN.CHARMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *_*
Met ven, ariana,trina,junita,rachel,kaisha, chelsea at lib for awhile at the lib than headed to parkway for dinner. prata DAMN awsome! :D walked to marks&spencer to buy percy pig than took 31 with trina home.
(:

2009-09-24T06:34:00.001-07:00

HEy all! i havent been blogging much, due to the upcoming eoys.. ARGHH!!!. Anw, today studied with Venezia and Ariana and lib. it was rather quiet and productive.. i managed to study my F&n chapter on minerals.. yay me! \m/ till nick quek, yoji, jerome, joseph, and some other fella came along. OMG lah, they laughed their hearts out like funfair and it was damn noisy+somewhat annoying yet entertaining.... had blueberry tarts + green tea for lunch. yummz :D

2009-09-09T06:47:00.001-07:00

Hey! i just got back from Cesco's Chalet. I had sooo much fun! OMGGGGG i actually learnt skateboarding((: its actually quite frightening though, cuz you'll never know when you'll fall. so yeahh. but nvm at least i got a feel of it. ^^. Went to Jasmine's house to sleepover cuz we didnt wana squeeze with the people. Had such a retarded sleepless night! we cant even sleep till 4, so we watched some japanese show on my phone to kill time. -.- Well, at least i caught like 2-3 hrs of sleep. (y). Second day was such a rollercoaster ride. We rollerbladed! :DD but it sucks soo badly! NEVER rollerblade at Pasir ris park!! the path is fucking bumpy with so many killer humps.-.- I almost died several times... :( Dinner was awesome, all of us had bbq chicken. Yummmm:P. At night we played indian poker with drinks. AND OMGGG i LOVE seeing cesco drunk! is soooo totally entertaining. :D Ohh and i just realize is suck at drinking. Just one cup and im like having headache the whole day. :/
okay i need to rest now. bye! :D

2009-09-06T04:40:00.000-07:00

hey! Today was the East Distict Youth rally!
Had some prayer thing and ice breaker church. it was rather interesting though :/
than it was like 4 when they took us to kcp in buses... woah, its really hard to tell who is who when everyone is yellow-.-..... anw, lunch was sickening! tastesles omelette fried rice, veggies and 2 soggy chicken nuggets!! damn, 20bucks is such a rip off! tsssk. :(

than came the singing/jumping etc... there were like so many hyper people! sadly i was like damn tired damnnn! i hate fever! oh man i hope it goes down :((((........
Happened to see Ms Rabot!!! omg i so totally miss her boring english lessons. hahahaha.
Had mass than took the bus back to church than home. :D

2009-08-30T04:14:00.000-07:00

Went out with Jasmine,Christina,Amelia and Victoria today. :D
Church>clarke quay>fareast>wisma>taka.
Actually, i felt kinda bad for doing that particular something, but i guess just once wont hurt right? (;
Walked till our legs ache until we found th flea. yayness, bought 2 tops!! actually wanted that dress, but tsk, it was last minute therefore, i had not enough $$$.
Walked around town, idk why but i felt quite tired and latargic for some reasons i guess it due to what happened last thursday...): yknw, bitchface is such a plastic!! okay, enought of that!
anw, dessert before dinner was awesome! :DDD some ice thingy. \m/
slacked at taka than home.
x.

2009-08-29T10:27:00.000-07:00

Vivo with Venezia,Jasmine,Kimberly,Ken and Andre.
Had onelongthing and slacked with them+camwhore. Ohhh and poor ken brought his camera for nothin! HAHAA
The proposal= damn sweet+ funny!!!!!!! his so hot!!
btw, andre sometimes i think yr damn retarded yknow :D
eat subway for dinner than cab home.
x.

2009-08-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

Awesome day. Fireworks was fantastic :D
haha idk why im called " miss unglamness"
hahahahahahah.
anw, happy birthday 44th singapore.
(:

2009-08-07T21:26:00.000-07:00

Hi world! its been so long since i last blogged! Anw, today my school celebrated national day. the skit and all was cool despite th fact last than half of th school is in red and white. hmm, i guess we're not so patriotic afterall?

Anw, after school me,venezia and sonia took 36 down to orchard cine. Saw Adrian and his friend as well, HAHA. bought tix to g.i joe and then Spent damn long in th toilet-,-.
Lunch at kfc was good but bloody fattening! ): see lah, im so gonna gain 10000kg now. ):
saw many people there like Axel and zacky, hahahh. Zacky talked to us for like 5 mins and it was rather akwardly funny? Anw, th movie is so FREAKIN awesome. Channing Tatum is fucking hot and i could just melt completely while he was topless! AHH!

Skatepark awhile cuz we like damn bored after th movie. caught a glimpse of this certain mister *winks* HAHAA its not my fault he has such nice hair, cute face, sexy body and skates pretty well!!! HAHAHA. Saw aris there too! hahahah today its like im seeing soo many people.. weird much?

Sonia left damn early cuz of church.. so me and venezia walked around and lepaked at taka. Blizzard ie cream+ churros= AWESOME!!!! laughed alot at random things. Ohhh and randomly saw Tamin walking with his dad. hahahahaha. ok not funny. but yeah :)

Left around 8-9 plus. Laughing gas started again. right ven? :D

2009-07-26T03:13:00.000-07:00

Tamp1+Vivo today. (:
the fact that i didnt had enough moolah to buy that freaking dress was bloody demoralizing..
nvm that, at least i got blue stockings! yay!
Carl's jr for dinner was the bombbb but i felt damn bloated after that.. ):

Ohhh, im starting to appreciate long bus rides now. \m/

2009-07-23T05:09:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i ask myself why am i always so nice to others? whyyyy? after all of it, im always the one getting hurt..is it really that worth it?
I really have no idea what have i ever done to you that make you fucking hate me?
The fact that you bitched about me to others? like all those bullshit?

SRSLY! i have nothing against you yknow!
Its not my fault you're jealous of me due to certain people after all this years.. and you dont really have to put on that sympathetic look infront of me.
no offence, you dont even know me enough to blabber about that!
Just do me and yourself a favour, stay away from me.
LOW-LIFE BITCH.
sorry, i guess listening to me ranting my anger is sooo not ideal but i just gotta let it out..

i cant seem to comprehend or express this feeling im feeling right now. its sucks.
Oh well, life's a bitch, so just fucking deal with it.
(: