Taking a break now from revising SS.. gosh these few days i've been doing nothing but ss. how, how fun -.- . hahaha anw N lvl havent even started and im thinking of the thing im gonna do and need to do after Ns.. hahah so much for being well prepared.. hehe but HELLLO im so fucking stress lah. this is pissing me off, and studying is annoying, firstly its so fucking boring, secondly, i'll end up eating all the junk food which will obviously add more fats into my things, tummy and arms. argghh i hate me life noow :(

anw, i've been watching michelle phan's videos. and omg i think shes really sweet and prety. Not to mention her makeups are soooo gorgeous all the designer brushes and stuff..after watching her videos i just wna head down to sephora and buy the whole shop lah plz ( like as if i can) hahaha! but still, ive picked up many makeup tricks from her, and ive been buying some of her products.. ^^ shes too gifted lah.. hehe.

OH AND BTW, im suddenly into kpop now. idk why either. i think its cause i like prettyboys? yes boys who have girly features but still manly. heehh my fav sort of men.. esp super junior. THEY LIKE SEKSI ONLY. AHAHA i wana buy their album since heechul and tuek are going for NS soon. NOOO, suju wont be a perfect grp no more :( but nevertheless, i'll still love them like a fat kid loves cake <3<3<3. but still sad, no more lady heehee and all. ohwell, right now all they need is support and encouragement from their fans not grieve! :)

Insomnia

Its currently 3.17am and im still awake. yes n lvl ss is in 2 days time, i should be sleeping now getting enough rest for tmr to start mugging again but noo im up .. doing exactly Nothing. yes nothing. what a complete waste of time. Well, i should be at Nat's house but nooo apparently im imprisoned in my own house till Ns are done. yes pity me loads. hhahaha .

Oh and recently ___ has been trying to get close to me i can sense it.. its pretty obvious. yes you're really nice and all and i appreciate you really being sweet and caring but the truth is, i dont really see this relationship leading to anywhere.. its just there stagnant.. i guess this proves that i really do not share the same feelings you feel about me. Unfortunately me being the type of person who hates breaking hearts, just refuse to lead you to the right direction but lead you to a direction where your hopes is really as high as your ego.

In the End, you'll be the one hurting yet again and here am i feeling guilty wishing i should have told earlier. But as i said before, i do not like breaking hearts, neither do i like being cold to others, if being friendly means flirting to you than i guess you're wrong. So in a way, dont Blame me for leading you in the wrong direction, cuz you were the one who chosed to believe. I just hope one day you'll see where im coming from and understand. :)